I need a breather.

From what I'm not sure.
From work definitely, but not just from work.
From stressing about what to do with my life.
From worrying about money and housing.
From waiting around for boys and dates.

 I NEED A BREAK

Reminiscence

It struck me suddenly.
I couldn't even recall exactly when and where.

Might have been on the train on my way home.
Or when I was showering.

But I just couldn't let it go.
The melody, especially the chorus was so FRESH in my mind.
I could hear it so very clearly.

But the lyrics were fuzzy.

So with the trusty help of Google, I found it.
First the Chinese version. 海誓山盟？No, wait.
排山倒海. That's the one.

Watched the MV which is mainly snippets from the movie.
Now what movie was that. Definitely not Titanic.
I THINK it might have been Pearl Harbor.

And it was. Looked for everything about it.
The original, the lyrics, the MV.
And like a crazy teenager who just fell out of love,
I started crying.
Just like that without warning.

Was that pent up stress, bad romances, or just plain foolishness?

In my dreams I'll always see you
Soar above the sky
In my heart there'll always be
A place for you for all my life.

I'll keep a part of you with me
And everywhere I am
There you'll be
And everywhere I am
There you'll be

Everyday is a special day.
Everyday is full of surprises.

Just when I thought some people have left my life,
they come bursting through my phone and chats again.

It's time to put on a #littleblackdress and head out to party.

RESOLUTIONS and DISTRACTIONS

有好多想发泄的情绪。

I guess I'm reaching my tipping point again.
My quarter life crisis seems to be alarming my entire system.
Physically and mentally. Tiring.

The fear of what can become of me if I don't change.
The anxiety of what awaits if I do change.

And of course,
the hopelessness and despondence,
the lethargy and listlessness.

It's a new year for goodness sake, why so down?
I need to set some resolutions. AND MEET THEM.

1. Start learning a new language (DECIDE Korean or Spanish)
2. Start taking my writing seriously (There are MANY avenues to that)
3. Beautify myself (Complexion, tummy/abs, thighs -> DETOX, TONE)
4. Career goals and plans
5. Study goals and plans
6. TRAVEL

Okay, something is definitely not right.
Making lists used to calm me down.
Yet, I still feel frightfully at loss.

#resolutions
#toomanydistractions